ahh I feel so unproductive right now.. There is so much I could be doing but instead I just lounged around, doing nothing, browsing the net mindlessly...

I feel a little guilty about my CPA program... havent read any of it, havent even touch my mentor program folder!! My friend told me, if we're up with the schedule, I would've study up to module 2 and starting module 3. (6 modules in total) and for me, I dont even know we have time schedules for CPA! =P

On the other note, Work've been good (not that much work but busy enough to keep me going till 5pm) and work have been quite fun lately. For some reasons, they always picked me to do the social stuff at work, so I've been organising fun day for like 30-40 people, morning tea, farewell lunches, and Team dinner. Though it takes quite a bit of time to organise, I quite enjoy it. Get to know people in the team (most of them are quite new) outside work!

So what I did for fun day was photo scavenger hunt. I was a bit worried at first, that it wouldnt work as well as we did it at One Way, since it's not only my colleague that came (which are my age - 21-28), but also my managers, my senior managers and head of finance! so it's kinda scary considering the list that I did was stupid funny kinda thing. but it turned out really well! they couldn't stop laughing and talking about it.! I didnt expect them to walk around, asking strangers to do things for them etc but they did it! so funny!... and they have to dress up in colours as designated, the yellow team was wearing this construction worker vest and walked around in the city.. hehehe it's pretty funny =)

I've been reminded on a few things this past few weeks...

• You're in danger if your Christian life is prayerless..
  
• Pray Pray Pray!
• Our failure to pray!

Well, only one thing really, our prayerless life as a Christian! To be honest, sometimes, I find myself stressing about ministry, upset about ministry, thinking what went wrong?, thinking why arent people maturing?, or even my personal life, worrying about my futures.... When in fact, I dont even pray about those things... like seriously pray about those specific things... as a response of depending and trusting God in regards to my issues and life... I act as if I could handle those things... by myself..

Rev Brian Tung again reminded us at SCCCA today, the importance of prayer in your Christian life and in your ministry. Prayer is your ministry. it's as if i've been stabbed with a knife... cause it's so true! not just at SCCCA, but also at evening service, when Rev David Marhe came and spoke about prayer, at RICE (those tennis RICEballs), and when flick and I found difficulties in ministry... It's only come to one thing, to trust God, depend on God, through prayers. There will be time when you find your skills, training, knowledge, efforts are not helpful and you're just STUCK!.... thank God for those times.. give thanks that you can remember God and depend on Him.!!...

ahh.. I'm so glad to be reminded about those things again and again! Thanks God!

ok.. another thing I've been reminded, that you cant expect much from a human being, from friendship, or even bro/sis in Christ, or perhaps bf/gf, husband/wife. I mean You can depend on them, but you'll be dissapointed some point in time, only God you can be depend on and not be dissapointed. but I do thank God for my family, friends, my brothers/sisters in Christ who continue to encourage, and care for me. =)

Next week is the Women Katoomba Conference!!! I'm soooo looking forward to it! =) 20 girls from IPC are going on Friday night and we're going to have a ball, I tell you! Immersed in God's word, fellowship with all the girls =)!!

talking about girls, women.... One of their struggle, Self Image..... Flick was telling me today about their electives on Self image... mainly talking about clothess... etc..which makes me think how about weight?... I think girls focus more on weight than clothes these days... well its kinda related to one another isnt it? The only difference is, if you focus on clothes, you spend more money (buying new clothes) but if you focus on weight, you spend less money (buying less food) unless you spend all the money on gym, diet programs etc... It's a good to be healthy but it's not healthy to not eat!..... I'm talking to myself here as well, though I know I can only talk, cause I cant not eat! =P

I guess doesnt matter whether its weight or clothes, the core problem is still there, isnt it?.. Girls/women are focussing more outwardly than inwardly... Jesus dont really care whether your 60kgs, 55 kgs, 45 kgs and so on.... God cares about your godliness... not your clothesliness or weightliness...

1 Timothy 2....
9I also want women to dress modestly, with decency and propriety, not with braided hair or gold or pearls or expensive clothes, 10but with good deeds, appropriate for women who profess to worship God.

like what Timothy said..... "But with good deeds, appropriate for women who profess to worship God..."....... so dress down, weight health whatever, but instead good deeds up, grace up, pray up, trust God up.. etc... =P

anyway, enough rants... my sister, Alice is next to me, been rambling to me with lots of things.. so I'm gonna stop, switch it off and talk to her properly! =) hehehehe

take care for now...